Healing the Healer’s Shadows

Hello   Awakening  Healer! Reminisce with me, will you? This week I’m reflecting on my healer shadows. I remember when I was overworked and allowing myself to be underpaid. #HealerShadow I was saying yes to clients that didn’t truly resonate with the heart of my passion and purpose and I was anxious and overwhelmed most days (although I never would have told you that at the time because I was so busy pretending and convincing myself that all was well). I was under the spell of “helper-hood” that says my needs take a back seat to the vulnerability of my clients and this was an expensive price to pay for my own well-being. Ouch! I don’t have a miracle story about the exact moment when I instantly changed this reality, but what I do have is an awareness of a gradual shift that began about 9 years ago as I woke up to the pain of how I was treating myself and the impact this was having on my work, my body, and my life. One step at a time, I began to tell myself the truth about what I wanted and slowly took steps to align my reality with these truths. It didn’t happen over night, but with each choice I made to honor myself, I became more present, more peaceful and more alive. I began loving myself and my work enough to be honest about what I chose to spend my time and energy doing and what made more sense to set boundaries around to honor my freedom and truth. Today, more days than not I adore...

How I Flip A Flop

Hey   Awakening  Healer! Last week I was working on a science project with my 6 year old niece and when the first round of the experiment didn’t go as expected, she looked at me and said, “well, Auntie, that was a flop!” We both burst into laughter and continued onto round two. As I reflected back on the moment, I remembered the playfulness and freedom of trying again and it got me thinking about how I handle flops in my business. You know those moments where you hope or anticipate things will go one way and then they end up going another? Being an entrepreneur is so much about the art of giving ourselves permission to bring the offerings of our services, products and experiences to life and my goodness is it a vulnerable journey or what!? It strikes the chords of our worthiness daily and often brings us to our knees in fear and gratitude. Recently I had an idea rise up in me for a new offering. I felt so deeply aligned and connected with it and thought for sure that it would sell out the minute I shared it with the world. To my surprise though when I introduced it, there were crickets. No purchases. No interest. Nothing. I sat there baffled at what could have happened and after dancing with my feelings of fear and self doubt for a little while, I scooped myself up and returned to what I know this journey is really about. Curiosity, self love, and growth. I’d now like to share with you a few questions I ask myself when it...

Awakened Versus Codependent Feedback

Hello   Awakening  Healer! I write this before heading to the beach for the first ever Shadow Guide Immersion experience working with the energies of my Messages From Shadow Oracle Deck and Healing System with 8 healers for 5 days. This intimate retreat sold out so quickly with those in my soul circle that I never had a chance to talk about it publicly, but if you feel a resonation with this opportunity, stay tuned for more offerings in the months to come as there is more on the way! Before I traveled to the immersion, I felt called to explore a topic today that has woken up a lot of awareness in me over the years. I invite you to breathe into this question and notice what awakens in you for presence and attention. Do you request feedback about your practice from a space of power or permission? Pause, breathe and notice. Let’s lean into this a little more… How often do we allow ourselves to be seduced by popular consciousness and buy into the idea that we need others’ opinions and approval or permission before we know if something is worthy of coming to life–our website, our logo, our new product or service, etc? When we seek feedback from a space of fearing our unworthiness, we begin to seek permission, validation and approval and unconsiously make others responsible for the birth of our offerings. We give away our power, abandon our own inner knowing and shrink, disconnecting from the very essence of the Truth of that which wants to come to life. This holds a frequency of Codependent Feedback…’I...

Decoding Jealousy in Business

Hello  Beautiful  Healer  Soul! Today I’d like to connect about a topic that doesn’t seem to have the fondest reputation. Actually I’ve noticed myself and many others cringing as this energy rises up for compassionate witnessing and we tend to tuck it away, ashamed of it’s mere existence, fearing that it may mean something unfavorable about ourselves. I’m talking about the energy of jealousy. I invite you to pause here for a moment. Jealousy. What words, feelings, sensations, and thoughts show up for you as you tune into it? Have you created a space where the parts of you on the giving and/or receiving end can be held and supported? Before entrepreneurship, I met the energy of jealousy in personal relationships when I feared that someone or something I loved may be “taken” from me. The parts of me who felt their worth was dependent on people staying or acting in a particular way made basically any human being a potential threat to me and my worthiness. Eeek! Still breathing through the residual grief from these moments. As I journeyed into entrepreneurship, jealousy began to emerge in spaces and places that my conscious mind couldn’t always understand. The energy of jealousy joined me… In moments when a colleague is celebrating a business accomplishment and I really want to join them, but instead feel this tightness in my belly and chest that makes it hard to stay present with their joy. In that moment when I discover someone else’s email list is bigger than mine or they’re filling their offerings more quickly or more abundantly than I am and…   In...

My Antidote to Resistance + Group Webinar

Hello  Beautiful  Healer! Another Monday arrives and the truth is that I didn’t really feel like writing this blog today. I’ve had a relaxing weekend and the thought of turning on my computer and coming up with something to talk about just felt overwhelming and unappealing if I’m being honest with myself. (I’m not the only entrepreneur who dances with resistance, right!?) But here you are reading this post from me so as you can see I’m either… 1) Forcing myself to write something even though I don’t feel like it because I’m “supposed to” or 2) The feeling passed and I’m feeling the flow of inspiration again. Today it’s the latter. The feeling passed and I’m back in the flow of inspiration because I activated my Antidote to Resistance and I feel called to share it with you now in case you may choose to use it too. I used to be in the habit of forcing myself to do all kinds of things that didn’t resonate with me, but now that I have discovered this antidote, I notice that my inspiration returns more easily and the days of intense resistance are fewer and farther between. If you’re waiting for some major a-ha moment, you may or may not find it here as it’s really quite simple even though our ego might have us believe that it’s very complex. The interesting thing I’ve found is that resistance just wants to be acknowledged and given permission to be present and as soon as we enter the energy of permission, a space is created where resistance doesn’t have to intensify...

When our heart leads, our clients follow

As we ease into a fresh week, I invite you to join me for an exploration of this sacred awareness that rose up in me… “When Our  Hearts  Lead, Clients  Follow” In a world where our sensitive souls may often feel overwhelmed and bombarded with 12 step plans and extensive strategies that say we have to get it “right” or our practices will fail, I find myself breathing into the refuge of my heart and using it as the compass that guides me. With few “heart centered” entrepreneurs to look to as examples of what this kind of leadership looks like, I have often found myself with questions like… How do I know when I’m leading with my heart? Is my heart really powerful enough to show me the way? Can I compete with others if I’m ignoring seemingly popular strategies and listening to the wisdom within? Here’s what I’ve discovered… I know I’m leading with my heart when I feel expansive and not desperate for a particular outcome. My heart is the most powerful guide for showing me the way because it is connected to my soul who signed the contract agreeing to what I came here to experience so it always knows the route to invite me in that direction. There can be no competition when I lead with my heart because the vibration of each heart is unique and the soul’s I am meant to serve and support will always respond to my vibration when I am connected to it. Are you feeling a resonation with heart centered practice building? Let’s deepen into this sacred conversation...